The emancipation of ME.

i have moved to a new site = www.ecarg.blogspot.com

( writing this for the 3rd time...arrggg)

wake up - 12pm

sleep - 12am

That is the life i have been having for the past few weeks... all i do is assignments..but i get so distracted by the tv and the fridge..i keep opening the fridge like as if some magical food will appear when i didnt even stock up. I guess im bored of doing my assignments..but it is going to be like that for the next few weeks... i just dont like it when i get up so late..like 1/3 of the day is gone..haaa..but i want to sleep in.

Today.. we finally got somethings done..

1. The movers came to take away the spoilt fridge and brought a second hand one... my mother's friends's son bought a new fridge so he gave us the old one. We had been using the spoilt fridge as a cupboard for the past 2 mths. So thank God for a new fridge. We have another one, but its too small for our family.

2. The repair man came today to fix the new door. My door has been broken for many months... ( thank God no break ins) I have been beggin my dad to call the man in...i guess he waited till it fell apart..haaa.. so yah..here is the before and after...

    a new door...  yeah

my house is old..so we need to change lots of things..heee

It sucks......My group handed in our report today, it was 1cm thick. the other group handed in theirs....it was 3cm thick!!! Maybe they had lots of appendix? my groupmates forgot to add in some of the apprendix in but i dont think its that crucial... or maybe we should have have a longer literature review...crap more...But 3cm thick?? i think they handed in their props..etc...wa lao... spoil market... but this project was rather difficult, our lecturer change the objectives at the last min...so we only manage to do it in two days...quite rush i must say. All of so blur also..It wasnt fair too, cos the other groups had more time and they could present more of their findings. If we knew we could drag the time, then we wont have cut off so many parts... I really felt that i could have done so much more... but the deadline is over. hai..i hope to get at least an A- for this module. it feels sucky lah..hahaha...quantity doesnt mean quality lah.. but i kind of feel that

thicker assignments = better impression = more hardwork = more effort = more marks =  better grades. 

( Jo's birthday )

We have a rat problem in the house... thats the trouble with staying in a house. Stupid rat when to bite though the washing machine tube to entre the house. Now i dont know if its still in the house of outside... we did try to set traps for it but ended up catching lizards instead.

The rat trap is just this board with glue... that my dad bought. so we placed a biscuit at the corner hoping to lure the rat. Maybe the rats are too smart lah. we have cleared the whole kitchem of food. NO exposed food, unless the stupid rat tries to bit the plastic containers again. We called the pest man in...so he also layed 3 similar traps, with some sticky thing surrounding a lux soap !!! According to him, rats like to eat soap. er.... it has been a night, we didnt catch any rats...no signs of any food eaten too. But we did catch another lizard though.

Will see how it goes tonight.

Is the solution keeping a cat???

oh..my daddy bought for me a new mouse.. its so cute..cos it's small....

( my new mouse )

This was on last last sunday's news paper....

Have u seen this at MRT stations?

This is the Chew on it sequel

There is more here...at the Chew on it (click) website. Scroll down for more...

( Very Good PAP. )

I have had this hamster the past 4 months. It loved to sleep this way.....

But last night, a cat ( has to be ) came in and ate up my hamster while it was sleeping... only its front teeth remains, with all the blood stains on the grills and on the side of the cage.

Er...i dont know how to clean my cage now..hai...

something wrong with LJ, i cant use the rich text mode.

Yesterday was good, Went for mid week service. Pastor was so funny...haaa..and i think the message was really good. Then had supper with C,S and W. Nice to hear all their testimonies. heee.. So many things have been happening..so many prayers answers. God is good. heeee....

Sherman's brithday was fun. It has been a while since i had a bbq and i like to bbq food. heee.. It has also been a while since i ate. Managed to eat more than normal. I hope i dont gain back the weight i lost. heee.. it has also been a while since i could laugh and talk out loud too. heee....

cheryl's roof top is really nice to have BBQ and parties. But the trouble is that we keep having to climb up and down to bring things up. But at night it is really nice. We had some time or praise too. Sherman's uncle brought his guitar.

Then we play the number game. First we used wine, then we decided to make our own dishes for the rest. heeee...I make a Potato dog. Its sweet potato with, ketchup, mastard, wine and lime. then i made a " Happy brithday" wordings that sherman had to lick it up. hee.. others made, bee hoon with mastard or wine. then i had to drink this butter lime juice..but we all ended up trying each other's creation. hahaah.. here's one of the forefits. Otak with mastard,lime and butter.... so fattening.. yucks.  The other is what happens to a hotdog when it is left on BBQ pit for too long.

ooo.. the sherman got a really expensive headphones... The sound is really good. I m spoilt now. I want it too..but its just too expensive lah. heeee...

Cheryl, thanks for organising. it was fun. I think its the best bday present u can give anyone...heeee..

Let me tell u the story of the most stupid guy in the whole wide world.

Mr Goondo is divorced. He now is intersted in a another girl. So one day he went to this girl's parents house and while talking to the mom, he told her why he divorced his first wife. He said that it was because they had an aggrement that when they got married, his career will come first before the family. But when they got married and had a child, the wife went back on her words. So he divorsed her.

Firstly, Mr goondo is an asshole. If he wants to have his career before family. Dont get married. Save a girl and a child from all the heartache form a divorced. 2nd why go tell his new girl friend's mother the reason why he is such an asshole. 3rd, he doesnt deserve anyone for being an asshole.

i just hate divorce, i always feel that things can be work out, God can turn things around. I have seen it in so many couples who were on the verdged of divorce but now they are so loving. If u think u will get divorce, dont get married. Simple as that.

Mr goondo also deserves to be called an asshole. i m not sorry for calling him that.

I just had my all my wisdom tooth removed today. I wasnt scared, but it felt a bit unbelieveable to go into the operation room., going on drip, and pads stuck to you to monitor the heart  beat, changing to their operation clothes, etc

Then the doctor said, " you are going to sleep now", he injected some liquid into me, then in matter of seconds i was seeing double and i just closed my eyes, i still could hear them talking, but after a few deep breaths, i was asleep. The next thing i knew, the nurse was calling me, "Grace.. grace," then she took away the oxygen tube from my nose, i was tearing and shivering too, felt rather cold. Then after that they pushed me into the ward to rest. My whole mouth was filled with cotton and i had to keep swollowing my saliva.the whole of my lower jaw was numb, couldnt feel my lips at all. My jaws didnt hurt, but it felt more like an aching feeling. right now, only the bottom right aches. not as bad as a toothache actually. But i guess its because of the pain killers and the LA.  

i went in about 9 plus an was over by 12 something. The whole op actually cost me $1600. But because i m  on subsidy, so i only have to pay $600 plus and since i could use medisave to pay, i didnt have to pay a single cent. heeee... except the medication.

My face is so swollen now, dont want to go out the next few days, cant really talk and i can only drink liquids. Hope i lose weight too. hahaha.. i slept so much, i cant really sleep now.

hope i recover fast too..heee.....

here's a pic collection of the past few weeks haaaa....

I have 1 hamster and 3 caterpillars

now the caterpillar has become

it hasnt turn into a butterfly yet..its been a week since the first one became a cocoon. now the 2nd one is  cacoon and the last one...probably died lah.

I have a crazy sister, just like me i guess.

I was in the lap last week, looking at cells with the microscope...and all i did was place my hp at the eye piece... the red things u see inside the cells are actually chromosomes or DNA heee.... normally we cant see them, but we can when they start to divide.

I was feeling bored in the library one day and decide that i wanna see how i would look like if i had a moustache or beard.

  but now... i have cut my hair...ahhh 

Oh and i ma so happy...Jean has found a new man in her life...yeah..

ok.. life with the camera is so much more fun...heeee

Well... i am laughing out loud inside me now... HAHA...

Ended a relationship that I thought can last. It's some historian's fault as they set the rules for the blinds. I'm grateful to the people who gave me encouragement and support during this period. I'll also like to thank the holy friends of my ex, coz you all had done well in making 2 person's life so miserable. You people were excellent chef in doing additives to dishes but normal taste buds says it's too salty and sour. From the bottom of my heart, I SINCERELY hope you people will REALLY go to heaven when you perish.

- MR EGO's friendster

And yes, i am most probably the "holy friend" he mentions. But the truth is that, I m not holy lah, font like to be called that just because im a christian.Cos i dont think anybody can be as holy as God. I just told my friend that if her stand isnt his stand and they cannot come to an agreement...then whats the point of carrying on. A relationship isnt just based on love ma. Ooo.. and i dont think i m the blind one lah...i guess we just have to see when the world ends....but i just hope it isnt too late for him too. Anyway to Him, You are so welcome. If my friend finds another guy that complements her..i BET 100% that she will be happy. Its normal to be miserable now, cos its still normal to feel the pain of a break up. But at least the future wont be that bad.

Ooo..and the best part is that he wishes i go to heaven...hahaa..no need to wish lah...so thoughful...hahaa..cos ah.. i will be going...REALLY going and i hope to see him lah. But even if he isnt there, then i think he migh be 1000X more miserable at erm.. yah. that hot hot place.

Anyway, its really fine time he knows that he cant do everything in his own strength..he cant work to make a relatioship happen or last. It takes two...sometimes it doent take anything.  Point is - YOU, me..everyone...cant be in control of everything.....

yes..i know i sound sarcastic. Infact, i dont hate him at all. I dont blame him for saying all these.... If people dont think they are a sinner, they wont think they need a saviour. Just like, if people dont know they are sick, they wont see a need a for a doctor.

If u ask me if heaven and hell is real? What do i have to lose? if really there wasnt such thing, it wont make a difference. But the question is, what if Jesus claims to say is true. Then, it will make a difference. But that isnt my basis for believeing.... i believe..cos i have experienced Him.

The past week has been on of my busiest week.

• justin came to my house 3 times just to reformat my com. spent sleepless nights tring to fix the com. the first time the sassa virus attacked my com. the 2nd time too, appearently norton didnt help, and finally, installed the service pack 2 first before connecting the internet. hai... but i have learnt to reformat the com on my own now. yeah.
• went down to punggol primary on tue, for an observation on an Autistic kid.
• went to see St hilda's pri principal on wed, I m going there once i graduated but will apply as an aided teacher. ( not under government, but all benifits still the same) The principal is really nice. Wish i could do my practicum there. Have to go back to Maha Bodhi.. hmmm....
• The most major issue that will stay constant throughout the next few weeks.... my ASSIGNMENTS...ahhh...
• I won free tickets for Starlightcinema...
• oh... n i CUT my hair.... short..ahhhhhhhh

Have you been in a situation where you dont really like the boyfriend or girlfriend of your good friend. Or at least feel that he/she deserves a better person?

I dont really want judge, nor do i really hate him to the core. But i just feel that she deserves a better guy. Every guy who loves a girl will OBVIOUSLY be nice to her what. What makes the difference is how he treats others, how much kindness is there in a guy, his character, how HUMBLE he is. Other important factors include, chemistry, sharing the same goal, passion in life for things..etc.  So I think sometimes girls (including me) decieves ourselves by telling ourselves that the guy loves me, or sometimes he treats me well....DUH!!!!!! It's just like why do other girls still stay with their bfs even when they are abusive? There are so many fishes in the sea lah, he isnt the only 'good' guy. Yes, rejection is difficult, but to suffer for this short few months is better than suffering for a life time. Why do we often like to settle for 2nd best or good...and not the best. Human Love is blind...I so totally agree with that. 

It's like two magnets, trying to force the both north poles together.... Althought the common thing is that both are magnets...but it takes more than just that to attract...to have a blessed relationship.One of the worst thing is to let emotions rule our lives...dont let it decieve you...dont like it get the better of you.

We often know what is right....but the difficult part is doing what is right...Cos its always easy to stick with the 'wrong'. hahaa.. so now..how can people say that humans arent sinful... we are sinners...needing a saviour. hai.....

 I think the two greatest lies in the world are that

1. There are not enough guys.

2. Maybe 'he' will change. ( for the better)

That's why probably why so many girls suffer...cos we are nice creatures. heee..

Well, i care very much for my friend... I dont wish to see her go through this....I hope she remembers that nothing can beat the unconditional and greatest love of all....Jesus. He knows what is best...he really knows.

I just witness an unpleasant incident.

A group of boys took a taxi and stopped just a few doors away from my main gate. They dashed out of the taxi and ran backwards, split seconds later, I saw the taxi reverse at full speed towards the boys but they manage to disperse in different directions.

My conclusion: They didn’t plan to pay the cab fare.

Absurd, I would say. I hate it when these people do such things. I hate it when stupid pple purposely scratch other people's car, kick cats, vandalise other people’s property, or destroy their things, kill, rape, break up a marriage.

It’s like they have nothing better to do. They have NO LIFE!! I so hate it. Why cant they just mind their own business or do something that wont hurt other people? If they want to scratch cars, why not they just go scratch the grass or their own cars. The world is already so ugly, cant we just have peace? Why wont people just cooperate? Maybe these people should just be locked up in jail forever.

I gave my dearie a treat at the esplanard to watch Dim Sum Dollies. It was so so so funny. Laugh and laugh until i had no voice left. Heee..its really so funny. I wish they could have more of it. Some how i like the silly, corny, stupid jokes. hahaha... Thanks Cheryl for getting the tickets. So much better than watching a movie.

Then on thu night, we went to watch Justin's nus pageant. He won the MR photogenic title. But the rest of the night was rather boring leh. Everyone just standing around. No wonder Lk hates nus bashes. haha.. but supper at geylang was good. I threw away the skirt i was wearing that night. haha... i think its too tight for me now, hmmmm...and i wonder why.

i havent gone for a facial for a very long time... well..i dont have the $$ to go. Spent quite  a lot already this month. Well...I finally bought myself a new phone. The panasonic VS2. It has 16 million colours, a 1.3meg pix cameara with zoom function, and special effects. hehee..so fun leh.. i love my phone. Now i can take pictures...but i need the infra red to transfer the pics to the com. hai......

kk..i better get back to doing my work.  cant wait to go back to church tom ... feel so funny the past few weeks.

I went to east coast on sat night....... supposed to be taking a walk but i ended up buying a pair of rollerblades. Ooo... so nice. but cost me a lot. hai... i kind of have no budget to buy myself anything. And i still wanna get a hp. I need to pay cheryl $60 for the Dimsum dollies tickets. er..and i kind of have only a few  bucks to last me the rest of the mth.

I m just believing that God will provide somehow. hee...

Sunday, morning went back to MPCC, nice to catch up with some people, they had a family day function. Havent had my parents back together for a while. Usually one of them will be away. Then in the afternoon i rushed to Marina for the fireworks. heee...nice nice... I love fireworks and all the glitter. I m just attracted to shiny stuff. I wonder if they have fireworks that will read " Will you marry me?" heee..so romantic right? heee... 

Well, i just spent $60 to buy a chinese flute. Taking lessons in sch. So...in the past week. I have got a new bag, new shoes, new blades, new flute...and i want a new phone now. ahhhh...someone stop me... i still wanna go for my brazillant....help... Will my money undergo Mitosis ( cell divison)  please.....

hai...so sleepy...

I feel so funny....I havent been to church in two weeks, went back to mpcc and there was FOP last sun. But it feels so werid lah.  I havent seen cheryl in a while, although she manage to drop by last sat. Feels funny not seeing her for so long too. heee...

Well, i want to change my phone but i cant do that till 9mths later. if not i have to pay a lot more. I thought of trying something not Nokia. But i  am afraid that i wont get used to it or it will be user unfriendly. .... Anyway, does anyone have any phone model to recomend?? eg. user friendly, looks nice, not to ugly for a girl, has a camera, does not lag... I dont think i want Sony, cos the radiation is very high.( did a test in my sch lab) and i dont like Motorolla too. Had that before....

pay day is coming...yeah...humm...

Everday i come back and i feel so tired. By the time i settle down and try to start work its about 9pm. er.......  and i sleep around 11pm now. And the term has just started, so there isnt much assignments, but i better start on some before the pill up. but always have to fight with sister for the com. hai....

so busy lah, travelling is wasting time. k lah, i better stop complaining. hai... there are people who have to travel futher than me, esp those that live in tampines or pasir ris...so i shld just shut up. hahaha.. 

I am still at my 'seem to be never ending' clearning and clearning of my room.

Last night went out with 4 items on my shopping list. But in the end i didnt buy anything. heee... LK bought me 2 tops and i changed to them immediately cos he did like the top i was wearing. He said its too matured looking. haha.. I bum into 3 people yesterday too, one nie fiend, one sec sch friend, one ex church friend. heee..

Oh, went with my parents to church today. Nice to go back and see the rest of my friends. But they always busy with meetings. So caught up with a few.. heee.... i still prefer the family environment there.  then the Choos come over to my house, so i was playing with gwen and gareth. they so cute leh, bu ta han....haha..

alright, i m so tired now. my bed time is 11pm and i get up on the ave about 7 plus. The cleaning and clearnig makes me tired too.

Walking on stage again wa fun. hee.. miss those days where i had to MC or act...heee..  It's actually not that bad once the spot light is on you, cos it totally blinds me that i cant see anything. So it appears like no one is watching you. haa... but it was fun lah, just to get out of my comfort zone and let go. hee..

Was just part of the NIE grandwelcome today. but i missed my bio lesson because of it. Then i heard that a few of my modules time slots has been change...but i dont know the details. so many things so uncertain...  and I just counted that i have 20hs of class each week and the new freshman have only 14hs..but when 2 term starts they have 17hs... some modules only start half way.

K i better start to org my things for sch..havent printed notes..etc...haha...hate to buy books to...after that they just collect dust. but each time i want to sell, i keep thinking....maybe i might use it in future - so i end up not letting go.  Same for a lot of other things too...keep and keep....aiyo..